tutue

At your grave I stood screaming, shouting and weeping ,but you didn't utter any word ! " What do I mean to you ? " I asked ,but with no word you gave respond. I don't ask you to excuse ,but why does the only one whom I loved is dead ?! I can't stand living here anymore ,please pick me up to live there with your bright hidden soul. People always ask " Why do you look sick ? " they don't know how I feel ! how my tears are deep and clear ! "Grief ,mope ,tight and panic" in my broken heart those feelings are all gathered. Someday I'll die ,someday I'll travel .. yes, I'll be there in the same place you were . But then it's over.. I'll not

Am I lost ? Just a friend I'd like to have in my life .. to stand beside and give an advice.. I hope to try that feeling at least twice .. I do not exactly know what they are talking about.. Are you the one who I miss ?? Am I lost or are you only just a ghost ?? Don't stare and shut up .. Please, say at least one word .. Are you blind or even more deaf ? Don't you hear my groans or just feel my steps ?? I don't care about you from now and on .. I tried , but I failed ..because you are the air that I breath .. you are the light which makes my life bright .. I miss you although you may not be exist..